The Impossible Dream

Lately, I have been thinking about happiness,

What is happiness?

How do you know you are happy?

How do you measure happiness?

I realise , I don't need to look for happiness, I need to change some other things.

One of the things, I needed to do was to cultivate gratitude, everyday, now before I go to sleep I go through my gratitude list in my mind.

Apparently happiness has a gene and everyones gene is different, some hold more happiness, some less, whatever your gene has a capacity for , however big this gene is, that is how happy you can be. It's almost like a cup you can only fill it , as much as it will hold.

So I  started thinking that, maybe ,you have to look at the quality of your happiness in your cup, only fill your cup with something of good quality. It's really like looking at your clutter.

I have realised recently, that I suffer from something called 'destination addiction, whenever, I achieve something, arrive somewhere, I cannot hold myself there , I am looking over the horizon for the next challenge, which is fine , but I need to enjoy the journey a little more and stay in the now, just to enjoy my achievments a little more. Take time to enjoy where you are, more time than you would normally.

This race we call life is so out of balance, was it wordsworth who said 'What is this life if full of care. we have no time to stand and stare'?

I would love to hear from you all, what you think, I am beginning to listen more to my spirit talking instead of my ego, how about you ?

love and light

Jennyx

I was recently listening to Wayne Dyer talking to Oprah Winfrey about his new book called 'Change your thoughts ,change your life' , living the wisdom of the Tao , he then talked about being out of the spotlight for a whole year of his life to write ths book. It is a series of 81 essays on The Tao, the meaning of life almost. I was very interested in a lot of the other stuff he talked about , you can find this chat on the Oprah web site. I bought the book 2 days ago , it is amazing. One of the chapters talks about, speaking less and listening more

Six weeks ago I lost my voice literally, I woke up on a morning when I was due to teach a class.  I struggled all day , six weeks later my voice has hardly come back.  I began looking into metaphysical reasons for the this problem . It was only the week before that I had stated to all who would listen, I was going to 'talk less and listen more'.  Well how is that for service from the universe ?  I am a therapist and life coach , so my voice is my tool, my most precious one.

After about a month I started to worry ,it would never come back, but then decide to just let go and see what happened . I started affirmations for my voice, started to allow the thought behind all this to come through.  I realised I was full of fear, of failing in my new venture, of not being as good as I 'should' be whatever that means. I am a perfectionist, of course only with myself!

My ego was not very happy about the fact I was standing still re evalutaing my life , my direction, my spiritual connection. I surrendered and waited to see what happened. I began to realise that my life was very out of balance, I was working too hard, I had intended to work only 25 hours a week but had finished up working 7 days a week.

My most famous saying is ' Is the race you call life making you sick' well yes it is  I realised, what a learning experience  that I can pass on to others once again. I dont have too many answers yet, but I am taking it slowly  and listening more. My voice is coming back very very slowly.

I am also enjoying pancha-karma treatments of hot medicinal oil all over the body and steam to push in the oil and toxins out (from the throat virus I have had) , wonderful , I will talk about that journey on my next blog. So remember, "Live the Impossible Dream" slowly.

love and light

Jenny